I don't really know what to write, I just know I love to
do it, but there seems to be a missing peace in this puzzle, and missing peace
in this mystery. You see I don't seem to
ever be noticed, I could probably stand outside naked and still no one would
notice me. How do some people get
recognized while others don't? What is
it that makes me invisible while other people are noticed all the time, they're
praised for their worthiness, they're praised for something I could do better
yet I forever am invisible.
This isn't something new, it's been like this my entire
life, unless someone needed me for something I was invisible if someone else in
the classroom heard me answer the question they would belt out the correct
answer and take the credit for something I said. How do you become recognized for who you
are? How do you start to become visible
to others? I really don't know the
answer to that because it seems like every time I try I'm just ignored. It's kind of a catch twenty two I want my
stories to be read and admired but at the same time I also want and need my
privacy. I'm an introvert and need the
peace and quiet to regenerate but at the same time I want my writing out there
for people to see. I have it on the
internet and yet it's still ignored.
What do I do?
I had a blog, no one came there to read it including my
family, I don't think they read it once.
Or even went to the blog site, that doesn't surprise me because I'm the
invisible one in the family, in fact if it wasn't for one of my sister's I
wouldn't know anything that's going on.
Do you see the dilemma?
When people hear that I've written some stories they tell
me that's wonderful, and want to know the website I give them a card and they
never come to the website, so why do I bother with it? That remains a mystery to me. It seems like I should just give it up but
that's not who I am, I know there must be a way to become visible eventually...
right?
I feel that maybe part of me shouldn't be a writer and I
should just give up that dream, but I've worked so hard to get here I don't and
can't give it up, and then there's the other part that says it will happen
shortly, don't give up. What if this
isn't my true calling down on earth here?
What if I'm doing it all wrong?
We have no answer, but there are days and times I feel like maybe I
should be doing something else but then I don't know what it is. If I'm not supposed to write, then what am I
supposed to do? Besides being nice and
invisible. I learned at an early age that
if I was nice I stayed out of trouble and could basically do what ever I
wanted, loosing that freedom would have been the worse punishment for me.
I need to get out of my invisibility so we can have the
freedom to do more. I feel trapped right
now because I've been trying so hard to get noticed and keep falling flat on my
face or in other words being invisible.
I feel like if I can just break out of that or at least get some notice
with my writing it will really boost my ego and help get things moving along.
While I was writing this I did have an idea that I could
put on shirts or things. Invisible? Come to the invisible sight at
www.Gumshoenick.com to read the invisible stories written by an invisible
author. Or something to that
effect. I'm going to get photoshop up
and running in a minute to see what I can come up with. I think I like it. I have the words "Invisible? www.Gumshoenick.com written by an Invisible
author." I kind of like it. I think a lot of people can relate to feeling
invisible, who knows maybe it will get people to the website and get people
buying the book. Now I just need to put
these on shirts, bumper stickers and other things I can think of. My backpack as well, I always have that when
I'm on my bike.
I am feeling better about the website now and hopefully
I'll be able to get some people to it and get them buying the books.
That may be one way to become visible but what if it
doesn't work? What if I need to actually
go down another path then what do I do?
